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matt_doyleIf I had one wish at the moment it would be that someone else could write my agent letter for me.
Seriously.
I finished Running In Her Veins in August 2008. It could still use further editing, I am sure, but it is about as polished as I can get it on my own, without serious and intensive feedback. Obviously I am not unbiased, but I think it is definitely worthy of publication. I think my baby would do well out in the world.
Expressing that belief, along with a summary, in a letter to a stranger... seems to be impossible for me. I have procrastinated and left many a half-completed draft behind me. I don't know what it is. Am I just this afraid of rejection? I cannot describe how frustrating it is to look at the words 'Agent Letter' on my to-do list day after day and just feel... helpless. Stranded. Unable to progress. It is the stupidest fucking psychological block and I want it gone, gone, gone.
It should not be this hard.
Seriously.
I finished Running In Her Veins in August 2008. It could still use further editing, I am sure, but it is about as polished as I can get it on my own, without serious and intensive feedback. Obviously I am not unbiased, but I think it is definitely worthy of publication. I think my baby would do well out in the world.
Expressing that belief, along with a summary, in a letter to a stranger... seems to be impossible for me. I have procrastinated and left many a half-completed draft behind me. I don't know what it is. Am I just this afraid of rejection? I cannot describe how frustrating it is to look at the words 'Agent Letter' on my to-do list day after day and just feel... helpless. Stranded. Unable to progress. It is the stupidest fucking psychological block and I want it gone, gone, gone.
It should not be this hard.
